The last week or so since I wrote Welcome to My Vulnerability has been pretty good. I’ve been staying pretty busy…very busy actually. This time of year gets pretty hectic with all of you in school and the Upward Sports season starting up. Throw in some of the other ministries I’ve committed my time to, and I just don’t really have the time to sit down and spend much time writing. I miss it.
As I write this, I’m watching Bubba play cars on the chair beside me before we leave for school. I was clearing memory cards from the camera last night, uploading pictures and making room. We had pictures dating back to the fall of 2010 on there, so I was getting a first glimpse in several years at what life was like back then So much has changed since then. Life is pretty good right now…even for all the hectic nonstop action we have going on during any given week. I often think back on the times when y’all were kids and wish we could go back. To a time when you were still learning to walk and talk. After browsing through pictures last night, I realize I’m good.
Perhaps it’s because I have been so focused on preparing for the basketball season…so wrapped up in my rather large and ever-growing to-do list…that I just haven’t had the space in my head for much else…for any negativity. I like it here. I like being right here. Right now. In the moment. I don’t want to live in the past. Or dwell on it any longer. The funk I’ve been in for much of this past month has kept me from truly enjoying every moment for exactly what it is. Our life. I’m ready to push the memories of that incident aside and move forward. I like it here. I like the present. I like watching you play. I like playing with you. I look to the future with hope and confidence. And with one eye on the future and one eye on the present, I have no eye left for the past. And I’m good with that. I like it here.